Early Morning Ramblings

I was born to an atheist father, who later became a Baptist, and lapsed roman catholic mother with Santeria beliefs. So, I don’t think anyone should be judging my spiritual choices.

When I was young, I’m talking 6 or 7, I distinctly remember trying to control the wind. I would stand on my friend Zoe’s porch and call out, “Winds of the East, Winds of the West, Blow!!!” Didn’t work but it was a great idea at that age.

I don’t know what i was expecting to happen when I started on my path. I admit I had romantic notions of Paganism and Witchcraft. Yes, I worked the obligatory love spell. And, guess what? It actually worked. Aphrodite loves to laugh and she will laugh at you. That spell thought me to be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. I wrote down exactly what I wanted: tall, blue eyes, former Marine, steady job. 2 weeks later I met him at a family member’s home. He was everything I asked for. Of course, I forgot to ask the goddess for him to be single. The situation didn’t end well.

That love spell has turned into one of many instances that I have learned from on this path. Every book, fluffy and not, has something to teach. Everyone has to learn from somewhere. It’s a process of spiritual evolution. Once you get the ball rolling you have to keep it rolling. You become a spiritual shark. Keep moving/learning or die/stagnate. I stagnated for a bit after high school but Odin became of interest. He had stuff to teach I know he did. I couldn’t quite understand where he was coming from. So I left the country and didn’t give two thoughts to the winds or Odin until I purchased a set of Tarot cards and a small cauldron on a whim. Fast forward 4 years and I’m performing a rite for Artemis after the birth of my daughter. Promises were made and kept that night. The child is blessed in so many ways, I hardly know where to begin or how to explain.

I never delved into a pantheon like I have with the Hellenic. They seem much more real to me than any other. I respect all the Gods and spirits but only work with ones I feel a connection with. My first encounter was with Aphrodite. The beautiful Aphrodite is a finicky goddess and finds my lack of everyday refinement clashes with the image she portrays. I’ve got the heart but not enough to wear makeup and perfume everyday.  She led me to Apollo and he was not impressed with my refusal to moderate my life. I am a person of extremes. He does accept my art work as offerings though. Nice to know I haven’t failed totally.

Apollo brought me to Demeter. She is one of my most favorite of all the goddesses. A single mom who will make all suffer until she finds her daughter. I can relate. I would bring the thunder if anyone messed with my daughter. Golden Demeter led me down to the crossroads to Hekate.

At the time I write this, I am dedicated to Hekate. I do not feel that I am living up to the potential I have for her. I feel like a bit of a failure. I’ve been feeling this way for a while. I think that may have closed up my 7th Chakra. I have my aura read a few weeks ago. My crown chakra was a little weak and my 3rd eye was almost completely shut. Can’t have that.

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